ACEO (art trading cards)

Corpse Bride

 If I touch a burning candle, I can feel no pain.

 If you cut me with a knife, it's still the same. 

And I know my heart is beating, and I know that I am dead; 

yet the pain here that I feel,

 try and tell me it's not real, 

and it seems that I still have a tear to shed.

 If I touch a burning candle, 

I can feel no pain.

 In the ice or in the sun, it's all the same. 

Yet I feel my heart is aching; thou it doesn't beat, it's breaking

 and the pain here that I feel, 

try and tell me it's not real.

 I know that I am dead;

 yet it seems that I still have some tears to shed. 

Alicia May

My first attempt at a pencil portrait, My beautiful little niece Alicia May

Bipolar Tattoo Design

♥ Made for Stephanie ♥

Cookies

Painted this a long time ago but just found it.  Amy Brown is one of my favourite artist's. Who's work with fairies is probably the best I've ever seen. This one was so cute I just had to try and paint it. I know a bit naughty, but that was when I was still practising, honing my skill's and copying picture's to get better :) 

Jar of Hearts

Cute

Humming Bird

Humble, proud, so serious, self-accepting and assured

Am I so deprived of your quality's? You seem so rare that it's absurd.

You could make my heart beat like the wings of a hummingbird

So much emotion, so much passion, our ideals of love got blurred.

A hundred reasons to forget you, a hundred to refuse

But somehow, in this moment, you have become my muse

Your eyes remind me of your dreams, they are the colour of the sky.

And in my mind they're planted long after you said goodbye.

In fact your on my mind morning until night, the devil in disguise

I tried to conceal or defeat my mind, but my logic went awry.

A thousand reasons to forget you, a thousand to refuse

But you caught me, and now you're torture, and I'm regretfully seduced

I liked it when you were loving, gentle, caring, sweet

And how, like me, you made it all so personal and discreet.

But I felt your feelings were doubting, that under your smile hid deceit

And now I'm just a heartbroken girl, falling at your feet.

A million reasons to forget you, A million to refuse

I know it, god damn it! I can't reach you, I'm always going to lose

I know I've seen the real you, the part you show the least

The drive, in your eyes, I've seen so much light, I wish you could release!

I wish you could believe again, in the angel and the beast

But you've given up your love, your dream's, for society's beliefs.  

I pretend that I forgive you, say I understand, but I know there's just no use

There's a billion reasons to forget you, and a billion to refuse

Harlequin

To colour or not to colour? can't decide!

At work :)

Stop the stigma

Bipolar + Borderline Personality Disorder Awareness

Stop the Stigma

I Hope it will help some of you when explaining your illness to others

Dear husband, wife, brother, boyfriend, girlfriend, sister, son, daughter and friend. I thought I would write you a story about dealing with mental illness. A few words to explain. We have been diagnosed with an invisible disorder. It is something you cannot see, it is something that you cannot understand if you do not have it yourself. But we love you in the same way that we wish for you to love us back. So we hope that you will  try to understand a little bit better by educating yourself about our illness.

We are often so lost. Sometime in our past a doctor told us that we have disorder. At first we did not know what it was. Then we read about it, our doctors told us more about it and how it's a chemical imbalance of our brain and that medicine helps to regulate it (just as a diabetic patient would use) and we joined support groups. By now we know a lot about it, but is does not make it better. There is no cure for this illness but there is plenty of help out there. We just need a little extra patience and a little more understanding.

Sometimes we get a depression that is so overwhelming that it feels as if someone laid a ton of bricks on our chests. We can’t breathe, we can not think straight everything just feels hopeless. We get severe anxiety. Sometimes we cannot face food, we cannot face anything but the wall. We sleep a lot or not at all. Then, some of us drink, or take drugs, self medicating in an attempt to make the pain a little bit better.

Some of us take medication. Sometimes it works and we can maintain stability. Sometimes it makes you feel like you want to die. Some medications give you nightmares, others make you sweat, others causes ticks and spasms in your face and hands. Some medications makes you nauseous, gain weight, others takes away your desire for love making. Some of us cannot afford medication and have to face the repercussions.

Sometimes we are manic and reckless. Over talkative, little if any sleep and we do things that we later regret, but we do not have control over it. Sometimes we get so angry that it borders on rage, at what will seem for no reason at all. Sometimes we are terrified you will leave us so we say stupid thing's. Sometime's we feel that were not quite good enough. But then we then feel guilty for the anger, the paranoia, the accusations, the impulsive behaviour which can lead to you wanting to give up on us and leave. Please know 9/10 times these feeling have nothing to do with you or anything you have done. It is the chemical imbalance that make's us feel like this, and we are sorry for that.

Sometimes we feel so lost and sad. We get so depressed all we want to do is sleep. Misinterpreting this and thinking we are lazy can  make it worse.  Sometimes we wish that we could just be ok, just function like every one else. But we cannot. We are the way we are and the only thing that makes it better is our fight and your support your love and your care.

Please don't take this illness for weakness, we can deal with everything life throw's at us, treating us like a china doll will not help the situation. Please trust in us, believe in our strength. Do not hide thing's from us in fear that we will not be able to cope. We are probably more equipped than most to deal with hard situations. We are human being's just like you and were stronger than you might think. We want above all to be treated as normal. We have an illness we are not our illness.

So this is to say thank you to all of you that deal with us every day. We know that we are not easy people to deal with . We know that we often hurt and make it difficult and for that we are sorry. But we want to tell you that we also love you so much and we would not be able to cope with this life if it was not for you and your wonderful love and care.

So to all of you. Thank you ♥

Addiction

A shot to kill the pain

A pill to hide the shame

A purge to stop the gain

A cut to break the vein

A smoke to ease the crave

A drink to fuel the flame

An addictions an addiction 

Because it always hurts the same 

Ed

Edward Scissor Hands 

 Started this like a year ago and finally finished it :) Done in Coloured Pencils. Really wish I had a better camera! 

Dio de los muertos

" People fear death more than they fear pain.
It's strange that they fear death.
Life hurts a lot more than death,
At the point of death, the pain is over "
                                                                                                   (Jim morrison)

Time Eternal

Time is to slow for those who wait,

To swift for those that fear,

To long for those who grieve,

To short for those that rejoice, 

But for those who love.... Time is eternity 

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